Life's Update April 2015

Recently I have been doing a lot of thinking, it is about time I stop putting everybody else's happiness before my own, not many have taken a liking to this new way of thinking, it is all going to be worth it in the long run though, I feel the positive effect already.

My new years resolution for 2015 was to 'fix' myself... So far I think I am doing quite well! The year started rocky, a lot of deaths and I lost my way.

I was in a relationship that shouldn't have really happened, at first I thought that it was something that was needed, after a couple of months however, I realised that my feelings for someone else weren't going to fade just because I attempted to move on, no matter how much I try theres nothing I can do.

The first step into getting back on track was to end the relationship and deal with my feelings that I have for this someone else, don't get me wrong, they are amazing, he makes me happy so it was a great step to take.

I have had a lot of comments made by people I used to class as my close friends, at the time it seemed like they were looking out for me but this was not the case, I needed to make my own mind up, my life so my choice. They made him out to be this horrid person who didn't care about me at all, but, they didn't see the person that I get to see and spend time with, he is perfect in my eyes, he makes me happy, so surely thats all that should matter, just because we aren't doing things like everyone else doesn't mean that its wrong. It is out decision.

Anyways, back on track...

During the second month of the year I lost my way, again. There were a lot of deaths in the family and I turned to the aid of alcohol. I was drinking every single day, never a good thing to do! Luckily before it got out of hand I started to help myself. I am now getting back on track, getting back into fitness, being healthy and on a no alcohol diet.

I am at a place right at this moment in time that I am loving, therapy is going great and is helping me deal with a lot of things, I am back in contact with my step mum and dad whom I haven't spoken to in four years! I am working out every day and eating better, things are looking good, not to mention that one special guy that I can turn to whenever I need to, he helps out a lot more than he probably thinks, he is the reason I can keep going.

With all of that being said, life is good... And I hope it stays that way.

Until the next update... bye! :)